moving all the time

the past six months of my life (from about may to about now) have been strange

they have been strange partly because of a major change in the day to day look of my life (going from both working full time and going to school full time to simply being a full time grad student) and partly because of the change in people in my life.

key people have been both coming into and leaving my life in a strange way.

my old friend aaron (who i really consider to be my brother) came back into my life after a period away. my dear friend jen moved to pheonix, making my heart long for phoenix at many points. my dear friends val, amy, and sarah moved on from grove city college (where i could drive two hours and have the company of three of the godliest women i know) and have gotten married and moved far away. my heart often longs for them. anne is far away still. shawn is home from iraq. neil has come into my life. d and may and carly and i have an increasingly hard time connecting. as do aaron and alex and i. i have found a close friend and godly counsel in my roomate tonya.

people make a difference. different people around makes a different sort of life.

and so many people have moved to new places for specific purposes, and continue to ask me what my next step will be (despite the fact that my next step will probably not come for more than a year from now). and i don't know what it will be, and depending on who asks, i may give very different answers.

i don't know what my next step will be. i don't know when my turn to leave akron will come. i don't know when i want it to.

but i am not unssatisfied with the will of God, and i don't ask for something different.